Last night in our bible study, we studied the story of the Prodigal Son. It’s amazing how God shows Himself to us in different parables told by Jesus. Luke 15:11-12 reads, “There was a man who had two sons. The younger one said to his father, ‘Father, give me my share of the estate.’ So he divided his property between them.” It’s amazing how many times I have read this chapter and failed to see the word between. In my mind, only the younger son got his share of inheritance but this word implies that the eldest son also got his share.
Now we all know the story that the younger son squandered his share to rebellious living. He lost everything and even became a slave to a Gentile. One day, he came to his senses and decided to go back to his father. He will ask him to make him a hired hand so that he can come home. “But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him,” reads Luke 15:20. Instead of being angry and rejecting his son, the father threw a party in his honor and gave him the best robe. When he saw the party and all that his younger brother had, “The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father went out and pleaded with him (v. 28). He said, ‘Look! All these years I’ve been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends.’ The father’s response was heartbreaking, ‘My son, you are always with me, and everything I have is yours.’
In a lot of ways, the two sons were both prodigal. Only that the other one left his home physically and the other one left emotionally. The elder son’s heart was not right with the father even when he was always with him physically.
I searched my heart and asked myself a very hard question: Who am I like towards my Heavenly Father? The younger son or the elder one?
When asking my Father in Heaven of my heart’s desire, do I see myself as her daughter and ask in faith like a child? Or do I ask like I am a hired hand? Do I ask only what I deserve or what I earn? Or do I ask like I am His daughter and I own everything He does?
The elder son was always a SON to his father but he saw himself like a hired hand. He didn’t ask beyond what he thinks he deserved and earned but all the while, everything the Father has was his, he only needed to ask.
Prayer and fasting is done and I rewrote my faith goals. This morning I asked like a daughter. Like His answer was already Yes and Amen. And if He says No, there’s a good reason why He says so. I looked at my sleeping little girl and realized it’s just like how I say No to my daughter. I say NO when she wants to jump in a dangerous place even if all she thinks is that it’ll be fun to do so. I say NO when she wants to watch something that won’t be good for her even if she thinks it’s harmless. I know a lot of things she doesn’t know yet and would someday understand. Like His ways are higher than mine (Isaiah 55:8-9).
My daughters woke up. Macy asked for a cookie. Lily asked for milk. I looked at them and asked God, “Father, I want to ask the way they ask.” Faith like a child – All faith. No striving. They depend on me to prepare food for them. They depend on me for their safety. Macy tells me everything that comes to her mind. She tells me what she feels. Lily goes where I go. I lead her she follows. They know I love them and I remind them everyday. All they need to do to get that love is to be here and receive it.
The challenge for me as a mom is to model the love of Christ to my two little girls. I read that our children’s relationship to us as parents reflect and affect how our children will view their Heavenly Father. I will never be able to perfectly model the Perfect God but I can show them the love and grace of Christ towards me amidst my mistakes and imperfections.
The question for us all is how do we view ourselves in light of the Father’s love for us. He has always loved you. He is always waiting for you. It doesn’t matter what you lost living unwisely, he still has the best robe waiting for you. Come home.