Do you remember those times when you pray and there’s no answer from God? Didn’t it feel like it’s time to give up? I felt that way. Just recently. For over a year now, I prayed for a job. I attended grad school, did freelance work from time to time but still no call for a job offer. I questioned why is it like this when I did my part looking for a job. For so many times, I got close to a job offer then I lose the job to someone else or they simply do not call back. I then doubt but I had to fight it with faith. I was really a fight. For many times, I cried because I know I can do it and my resume would attest to that. But what would a Magna cum Laude title do if it’s just not for you? I cry and my husband would comfort me. We prayed and prayed. I started to not trust in my resume but trust in God alone.
Every passing month was a challenge to my faith. God was faithful. We were never in lack all throughout this season of waiting. I found out that I always have a choice to make. To believe or doubt. I chose to believe and not doubt. It was challenging but all it takes is faith. My husband always tells me that the job for me is already prepared, all we have to do is wait and pray.
An event made me cry for the same reason again. Noel and I prayed together. There’s truly power when there’s agreement in prayer (Matt 18:20). The next day, I went to another interview. I gathered all my courage and told myself to calm down, another rejection won’t make a difference. God corrected me right there. He reminded me of my life verse, ‘For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future (Jer 29:11).’ I prayed that God will give me strength to overcome all fears. I felt peace. I was surprised by the end of the interview when I was asked when will I start. I was surprised and I just answered on the top of my mind. I called my husband immediately after I left the office. He was happy.
I looked back and I asked, ‘God, why did I even doubt you?’ My husband was right. The job was already prepared for me. The waiting is very challenging but all we really had to do is wait and pray. I told God that I regret doubting Him and through His Word, He simply told me to make the most of the gift I have been given, to glorify Him in the workplace and in my personal life. So, the next time you think of giving up, believe that God has your best interest at heart and He has a great and awesome plan for you that no one would dare imagine (2 Cor. 12:9).